indeed, the world is filled with imperfection and minute-lasting satisfaction. one minute you can be on clouds nine, and the other you can be in your pit. that's what you get if you place your security in the world.
and that's what i'm getting. fancy getting happy based on happenings. and now in the lowest of valleys, also based on happenings. GRRRRRRRRRRR.
but against all odds, God is still praise-worthy. God is still unfailing. God is still faithful.
joy is from Jesus!
Monday, July 13, 2009
was meant to be looking for some old teachings in my teachings box but i ended up reading encouragement cards and birthday cards and whatever cards i've collected over the past few years in Christ. and i must give credits to these cards for seeing me through all times. they really warmed my heart a lot a lot.
i feel sad though, that some ppl are no longer around. and hahaha, probably some of them have alrdy forgotten about me. but well, i know God has a great and mighty plan for every single one of them.
God's been really faithful as i flashed back. He helped me grow in different aspects wherever He put me. and i must really really thank God for the honor, for choosing me of all people, for insisting to grow me albeit my gazillion flaws. i am ever so thankful i'm in God's list and i know God loves and favor me a lot. thank you Daddy, i love you very very very very much.
and yeah, i'm really very very excited this birthday. am not particularly particular about the celebration. it really need not be elaborate. i just hmmm, really hope for it to be heartwarming. like with deep sincerity of the heart. please dont write card to me if you dont mean the words k. hahahaha. let me be greedy for once. =p and impntly, i dont wanna take charge on my birthday. so all the phlegmatic ppl around me, please dont let me start ushering you guys to move or anything. i think i will just faint.
okay, enough of me being a princess. i love God. and i'm missing quite a few ppl.
God's been really really good and that's an understatement. He's AWESOME MORESOME, but million times more than that. full of grace, full of love.
there's been quite a lot of stuffs going on recently but i handled it very differently this time cos in all things i knew that God was watching me and nothing could go wrong. =) i had so much peace in my heart and though the issues were towering, it never could quite get the better of me. and hehe, yes i've been whining la. but i really am just whining. i'm not worried. really really! i'm glad i went through everything with God, the outcome turned out really heartwarming!
firstly if anyone even dropped by this space, i once wrote a pretty harsh entry about how i felt deep inside me about certain issues. and that was really one of my main heart cry for the past 2 weeks. just thinking about it makes my heart ache like crazy. but God really does make a way when there is no way. when i can't do anything about it anymore and just pray and lift it up to God, He opened up doors!
hey ritchell, i see God slowly taking foot in your heart, and man, i am so encouraged by you! keep on yearning for Him and spam us questions to grow more! woohoo! i am so excited for you!
thank you nicholas, for the talk on Saturday. though short and pretty aimless (haha), you renewed the faith and trust i had in you. and yes, i wont take it back, cos i'm leaving it for your safekeeping and i pray so hard that you will emerge out as a focussed man of God who will never ever turn back. i refuse to believe that you are that vulnerable to satan and his cunning schemes, and i know with my whole heart you will not turn back for the world again. my trust, in your hands. God's love, in your heart. this race, YOU will run, all the way.=)
thank you winnie for coming down all the way to my land of milk and honey to hear me whine. HAHA. it's deeply etched in my heart. and aiyooo. thank you thank you thank you, love you very very much. =)
thank you anqi! i just thank God that i'm getting closer to you everyday and it really warms my heart. though we are always crapping la, but i'm very appreciative of the mini moments we spend together. let's keep it up k! love love!
thank you huanwen! i'm really starting to love you much more now. and i have so much to grow you in! thank you really, for having such a willing heart. i know you yearn to grow, and i pray that God will give you the discipline to break through! jiayou!
thank you yuxue! for reasons you dont know. hahaha. you've been helping me balance my perspectives on things and i've learnt a lot from you!
thank you bernard! you've been really sacrificial and passionate! and yes you are good boy, though you always disturb me. jiayou k!
i have been praying for God to expand my compassion this year and God's been really molding my heart to be in sync with him especially for the youths! it gets a bit scary sometimes cos my heart literally aches when i see the youth running their own lives in ways they deem fit yet the least beneficial. but thank God cos i now i see them in another light, another hope, and with greater future!
AND. aiyo. how many times must i say this? but i really really love North! i love this family a lot a lot a lot and i treasure the ppl in it. thank you if you are in North.
okay, on a side note, i've been put down as baptizer yesterday during water baptism! hahaha, tt's why there was a bit of a commotion on my blog cos i was a nervous wreck! but i thank God for the opportunity, because it was a privilege to be chosen, and a greater privilege to see people making their firm decision on following God till the rest of their lives. that's what it really is about. to want to follow Him wherever He leads and fulfil the purpose of our lives. thank you God! it was really an experience!
photos photos!
^ tt's glenn!
^ tt's sichen (Faith!)
^ tt's twin weikeat (Jepheth!)
i don't have Hweeling (Danielle!) and Grace (still Grace!) 's one though, cos theirs are videos. hehe. thanks ritchell the pics! =D so exciting to be the one standing at the side to baptize them. woohooo!
oh and if you're a centralite or anywhere outside North, you must be dying to see how my group is like right! a few pics below to show you my lovelies!
^ Yishun Town girls, missing yvonne, nicole and yokeleng. =)
^ ChungCheng girls plus 1 lovely new northland sister shirmain! missing yuwen, sarah, kejing, mandy. =)
i dont have a pic of the guys yet, but here's one from camp, a bit blur.
^ ChungCheng brothers, missing Sijun and Glenn and the northland new Bs. =)
oh and my favourite people like to do 'exciting' things like muah muah, so here's a sneak peek!
^ oh my gosh, sick to the max, but really funny to watch!
^ look at nicholas super satisfied face. HAHAHA.
earlier on we celebrated brandon's birthday too!
^ brandon's surname's Gui, so WE LOVE GUI!
^ =) i like this pic!
last but not least, here's a pic of the whole horde of monsters in North A from camp. not everyone here but it's okay, we'll see more next camp! =D
^ my darlings! =D
i have more pics to post but maybe some time later la. hehe. all of them are on facebook actually. but i know some ppl lazy to click click click. tt should be about it. more next time!
Sunday, July 12, 2009
YAY!!
baptism went pretty well, it didnt rain!
welcome to a new life Glenn, Grace, Danielle!!
Friday, July 10, 2009
oh my tian, oh my tian, OH MY TIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.
am i supposed to say? OH MAN. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
There's a cry in my heart For Your glory to fall For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again A thirst for discipline A hunger for things that are deeper
Could You take me beyond? Could You carry me through? If I open my heart? Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before But I know there's still more Oh, Lord, I need to know You)
For what do I have If I don't have You, Jesus? What in this life Could mean any more? You are my rock You are my glory You are the lifter Of my head Lifter of this head
hohoho! i love Joyce Meyer's podcast!
God has blessed us with the Holy Spirit who dwells in us. and with the Spirit comes the fruit of the spirit! (-.- duh.)
and the fruit of the Spirit is Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodnes, Gentleness, Faithfulness and Self-Control. (Galatians 5:22)
Everyone of us who have received Jesus has the spirit in us, and that means we would all possess the fruit of the Spirit. and the fruit of the Spirit is A fruit, singular, that encompasses all of the 9 traits mentioned above. it comes in a package! so you can't say you have goodness but no kindness, or love but no peace. if you have it, you have ALL NINE of them.
and so i was saying, everyone of us who are filled with the spirt has ALL NINE traits. some of you might say, well, i've been a christian for 10 years but i don't see that i have any of them. but it's not that you don't have them, it's that you've not developed them.
it's just like muscles. we all have them. it's just a matter of whether we develop them so that it can be seen.
another awesome example. I have snapped a photo of a flower. so I now possess a photo of a flower. but no one would know that i have this photo or could have seen this photo unless i DEVELOP it. most importantly, photos have to be developed in a DARK room.
the same goes for the fruit of the spirit! we ALL have them. but we ALL gotta DEVELOP them. and we gotta develop them especially at times behind the scene, when we're all alone, when we take time to sit down and reflect.
time to flex those spiritual muscles and exercise our fruity Fruit of the Spirit!
just had a talk with yuxue this morning.
and i guess it's divine that we happen to be talking about family. cos i realise how insensitive i have recently been at home. spending very little time with the loved ones and even shown black worn out face when i'm with them.
which brings me to the point that i shouldn't be treating my home like a hotel. and i need to start making effort again to love them and care for them.
auntie's recently been very bothered by her painful shoulders. and mummy's been sick for more than a week with sore throat. (she looks really really burned out) dad's been hmmm, i dunno, but i just gotta be more receptive to him. more so with my sister. havent been seeing much of elder brother. and yunian's been sick for 3 days alrdy.
man, i really need to pay more attention to them. bowling session with them sooooooooon! and daily prayer.
ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! it's that flip stomach feeling again!
SOMEBODY HELP MEEEEEEEE.
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hello! i'm Bridget!
people who knew me before 2006 knows me as Qixin.
i'm proud and privileged to say i'm a child of God, who was received into God's family in this fantastic place called yhope.
i was from awesome moresome Central, and am now in oh-so-WONDERFUL-coolio-milo NORTH!
i have 3 crazy people namely Brandon, Yongqing and Yuwen in my young young nonsense johnsons Caregroup, and whole horde of zombie-like monsters in my BEEYOTIFUL NORTH A!
Sharlinglong, David.HOE, Joyce darling, twin Weikeat, Celine.dabian!, pweetie Xinru and siao Wanting are OLD-OLD-eccentric-crazy-cows CG loves!
my sheep pen have fat sheeps like Szehui, Huanwen, Yongqing, Yuwen and Anqi!
i'm currently serving in this fantabulous ministry called ydance!, graduated from crescent and am now studying in ngeeannpoly.
18 this year, but gonna turn 19 this 03Aug. add me at qixin_90@hotmail.com.
^ tt's glenn!
^ tt's sichen (Faith!)
^ tt's twin weikeat (Jepheth!)
^ Yishun Town girls, missing yvonne, nicole and yokeleng. =)
^ ChungCheng girls plus 1 lovely new northland sister shirmain! missing yuwen, sarah, kejing, mandy. =)
^ ChungCheng brothers, missing Sijun and Glenn and the northland new Bs. =)
^ oh my gosh, sick to the max, but really funny to watch!
^ look at nicholas super satisfied face. HAHAHA.
^ brandon's surname's Gui, so WE LOVE GUI!
^ my darlings! =D